Aesthetics, Ideas, Projects

Meta. I intended this blog to be the ‘adult’ precursor to my LiveJournal (which I’ve described as “teenage catharses”). Instead of giving myself an outlet for the sort of writing I assumed I would want to be doing, I found that I had cut off the outlet that was most important (or necessary). LiveJournal, I decided, is for ‘any old drivel that I don’t need to write anyway’ that only my friends would read, while ‘my blog’ is for ‘serious stuff that I should be writing’. After making this choice, I found that I stopped posting to my LiveJournal and seldom felt the need to post to this blog. I’ve since realized that one of two things is true: either (i) at this point in my life I want/need to express ‘any old drivel’ (and not necessarily ‘serious stuff’) or (ii) it takes writing ‘any old drivel’ to get the engines running, at which point I can consider writing ‘serious stuff’. Back when I wrote drivel, writing on the internet was something I enjoyed; it got me writing, it got me formatting whatever ideas or problems I had for a general specific audience. I want that back. So, I’ve switched up my workflow a bit so that LiveJournal is a part of my daily routine. My friends’ feeds no longer route to an aggregator (they route to my LJ friend page) and I’ve strategically placed links to remind me that there’s more to the internet than Gmail, Wikipedia, and RSS feeds (which now route to Gmail thanks to a Python script called rss2email). The catharses (or plateaux?) are back . Perhaps (ii) is true, the engines will start up, and the need for ‘serious’ posts will emerge, and I’ll have this blog waiting just for that.